Challenging Myself

This week, I'm challenging myself to live in the moment, in the hour, in the day. Here's the thing,  when I do something big like start a new job for instance, I have a tendency to stress myself out majorly over things that are really small in the grand scheme of this thing we call life.

Things such as:

• What people think about me. 
• Making mistakes. (inevitable seeings as how I'm learning something new) 
• Over Achieving and Making mistakes.
• Under achieving and getting talked to. 
• Messing up your new uniforms with melted lip balm, and wondering how badly you'll get yelled at. 
• Getting yelled at period. 

Friday I made a mistake, and didn't do something I was supposed to. I forgot in the busyness of the evening, and didn't remember until early Saturday morning. (nooot the best way to start your morning) I proceeded to stress about it every chance I got, thus ruining a perfectly good day (when I wasn't busy running any how)

Not to mention, while cleaning my new uniform shirts, I forgot to check my skirt pockets and wound up melting a thing of lip balm in the dryer.. all over one of the shirts. [cue more stress]

Sunday I woke up with this determination. Worrying about it won't change the outcome. Its going to ruin another perfectly good day, and give me unnecessary anxiety on Monday.

Monday I'll go in, own up to my mistakes and face the ACTUAL consequences then.

I am refusing NOW to let another job, consume my non-work life.
With God's help.

One week down. Many more to go!

TGIF

Wow. That is pretty much the only word I can use, that will aptly describe this week. As you know I ....denied myself the opportunity to start school this semester.

Which turned out to be a very good thing.

Tuesday Ben (my service dog in training) and I went out to LC TN, for a presentation one of my co-workers was doing for Wilderwood.

But before I went out, my boss (with WSD) contacted me and schedule me to meet her after, I was finished with that, so I could drop off Ben, and so we could discuss "administrative changes".
Uh. Oh.
The presentation went really well, we watched a video featuring some of the parents that have received our dogs for the kids. It really brought home for me, once again why I was in this organization. Anyway so after all that was said and done. We drove the 38 minutes to WSD Headquarters for my meeting.

1 hour later I am sitting on the couch, mouth hanging wide open, pretty much in shock. 2 hours later, I am semi back to normal, and trying to contribute helpful ideas, and points. 3 hours later I've talked to both parents and co-worker and have purchased 5 new books. {Ok the books aren't relavent, but they were my concolation prize}

So I don't reveal anything I shouldn't, my job is basically doing an overhaul, and I'll have to be putting in more actual work hours. The mental hurdle is a high one, just because we are just doing something totally different, ..the longer I debate it in my mind, and voice it too my family, the more I can see the merits, and the good, I am concerned about some parts of it, but there are some aspects that I really think will be beneficial to our program, to the families.....I think about 85% on board with the new program.
Another thing is my free time is pretty much gone, since I'll have to travel to LC at least three times a week. {Which is OnLy 45 minutes away...one way.}

I was really upset about that, until I actually stopped and wrought down what all I actually spend my free time doing:

• Sleeping
• Reading
• Playing on the Computer
• Sleeping
• Playing/Training with the dogs
• Hanging out with friends
• Cleaning my house.....

In other words I'll still have some time, and this does mean a pay raise, so I'm just a little bit closer to "My Car'. phooey.lol

My current schedule has been awesome, only working MF= 9-3 & W= 8-4 and having 4 days off. I loved that schedule and refused to even want to move up to a 40 hr work week.

Ever heard the phrase: "Wanna make God laugh? Tell him your plans"

Yeah. I have the feeling that God is laughing right now.

New Schedule:
Monday - 9-3
Tuesday - 10-4 (or something like that)
Wednesday - 8-4
Thursday - 10-4
Friday - 9-3
Saturday~ 10- 4

Randomness

Hey Guys,
Our Holiday was nice, a little different then normal, as we were strung out just from a normal crazy life, adding the stress of the holiday...so we didn't even open presents until the evening, which is way weird, when you have a 12 year old, 10 year old and a 6 year old in the house.
I had to run out to CVS for extra wrapping paper and foil, but other then that we hung around the house and....enjoyed each others company.

And now for the overwhelming part:
There is a reason why I rely on God.
Some people may think its fate, or chance...
But right now He is the only one who can see the end of this situation, and that can work it out.
The school I hope to attended starts in only 17 days.
Somehow in 2 1/2 short weeks, I'm supposed to set up classes, find a job, get my furniture moved to "the White House" and the internet set up, as well as getting some kind of heat system going in there. According to my schedule, I only have three days off within those days...

Here's where I scream, but I'll save your ears.

Woooo.............

Anyways I'll TTYL

Erin