Thinking....

Its 11:00PM Friday night, I just got home from hanging out with friends...
In an attempt to be proactive I got online and started looking up classes that I need to take this semester.
Yes I know I've only got two weeks 'til school starts, but I did sign up earlier this year, however the payment date was yesterday, and I turned my financial aid information in ... today..

In an attempt to rectify my procrastination mistake in that I decided to see what I could/couldn't take this semester.

An hour later, my heart is pounding with a little bit of panic.

The available classes and times are all over the place. And the majority offered only at the campus furtherest from my house. 24 miles to be exact.

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In order to take a full load this semester my schedule would look like this:

M: (Work 4 hours) (School 2:00 -5:00PM) (Choir 6:30-8:00PM)
T:  (School 9:10-10:30AM + 10:45-12:10AM) (Work 4 hours)
W: (Work  7 Hours) (Church)
Th:(School 9:10-10:30AM + 10:45-12:10AM) (Work 4 hours)
F:  (Work 4 hours) (School 12:25- 3:25)

It would be a tight schedule on a "normal" basis...but the thing is, I have this dog. That's supposed to leave my house, by my side, in his yellow vest at LEAST five times a week. I should also mention, while this dog is welcome at my school, he's not welcomed at my place of employment.

Which means, that I would have to either go and pick him up before school, or drop him before I go to work. IF I I have the time, adding another seventeen miles to my already long trip.

So I've got some decisions to make.

Hard. Tough. Decisions. 

Another thing, in the back of my mind is the idea that perhaps...after two years..its time for me to look at other job possibilities...ones more "friendly" to the idea of having a service dog in training with them, ones with benefits..one that is.. (dare I say it..) Full Time?

One that would allow me to continue to raise without strain..

Cause being a puppy raiser is my life. But at what cost? 

That. Is the question. 

October 30, 2010

Today I

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Attempted to sleep until 12:00PM....
It didn't work because the kid-lets had to go out once an hour, since they aren't used to me staying in that late. Saturday's have become odd days for me of late. Sunday - Friday I'm going none stop, always preparing for something else the next day, and then there are Saturdays. I look forward to the downtime of Saturdays, to being able to sleep in, to having no agenda. But once I get there I'm like a fish without water, bouncing around with nothing to do. 

I woke in enough time to catch the beginning of the game.....
UT played SC this weekend, so I spent most of the next three hours straightening up my house and listening to the game. It was so.close I actually thought we might win, but SC came out the victors. *sigh* I would have been ironic if we could have beat SC after they beat the Gators and Alabama. 


During the middle of the game I was attacked.....
By another bird. ANOTHER BIRD! This makes the THIRD bird to have gotten in my house in the last couple of weeks. How in the world are these birds getting into our single wide trailer mobile home? I don't get it, however this poor bird was very unlucky in life, and was swiftly caught, killed and eaten by one Pompei. All I can say is, I'm glad I didn't have to dispose of it. RIP little birdie. 


I decide to... 
Call into to the weekly Guide Dog Foundation conference call, for its Graduates, Puppy Raisers, etc....I've "known" these people through the GDF-TALK list for over four years now, and having nothing else todo, decided to call in. Two hours later, my phone died and I was forced to get off, perhaps I'll call again next week. Great Conversations. I think its funny that I, Erin-hater-of-talking-on-the-phone, spent two hours on the phone with people I've never even met. 


I also attempted to make...
Applebees Spinach and Artichoke Dip. 
It was a disaster. 
It was nasty. 
It is in the garbage. 
However I have a new recipe to try from the Pioneer Woman (Soul Sweet Taters) They look soooooo yummy. 


 I tried not to think about all the decision I have to make.....
Have you ever attempt to do something and yet the more you try the more obstacles come up in your way? I'm starting to feel that way about my photography classes. Its not that I'm getting bad grades, but both semesters I've been taking it there has always been something hanging over my head, the threat of my classes being dropped, due to not being able to pay/FA dragging its feet to get my case taken care of. 
So I've been toying around with the idea of switching back to my original major of Web Design. I guess I get intimidated with this degree because its so.much.more of an effort for me. Creativity is not one of my strong points, and it can be tough to produce things that my teachers are "cool" with, that and I really really really don't want to drop photography. But one does wonder...is God trying to tell me something here? 


I had a blast at Disney on Ice...
Last night my roommate, her sister (also my neighbor) and I took, their nieces to see Disney on Ice Princesses Wishes. Amazing show. Granted I love anything Disney anyway but it was fun. We of course, had the "cheap seats" so we were all the way at the top of the arena, but it was still an ok position. It would have been a very relaxing evening if not for the lady who was trying to find her seats, and loudly looking for an usher, and telling people "well your just going to have to move" not to mention her kid was screaming the whole time. They finally got everyone rearranged and settled. 
At intermission I decided to take the little girls to the bathroom. BIG MISTAKE. The line went up the steps going down the steps for the restrooms. I wonder what people thought of a black girl with two little white children. Not your typical scenario! LOL! We realized we were getting the bathroom, so we rushed back to our seats, in time for the lights to go down and second act to begin. A few lucky kids got to ride around the ice on a boat and watch the next scene from.the.ice. I was SO Jealous! Seriously how cool was that? 
Anyway it ended far too soon, and defiantly a must see. 

Now that I have stayed up....
Way past my projected bedtime, I bid you adieu. 

This Week

This week has the potential to be a very. very. stressful week. But only if I let it. So I'm determined to live in the MOMENT and not 24 hours ahead, as I'm apt to do; and take things as they come. If I can knock things out of the way "sooner" then I'm can, but I'm sick of worrying about things I have no control over.

Just a little history:

You remember how I thought my troubles with the Finacial Aid department were over with!? Well they aren't! I just checked my FA Status and found out that I only got $700 for Fall 2010 and Spring 2011 semesters.

This means that I only get $350 for this semester.
This also means I still have $1,200 to pay out of pocket.
This also means that I'm not the happiest person ever.

Apparently since I'm still "technically" under my parents household (due to living in a home provided by them rent free) my income + their income = I should be able to contribute greatly to my school.

Guess what!? I already have! *sticks out toungue*

Anywho you all know I quit my second job in January drastically reducing my income, however FA goes off your Tax Return from LAST year, and so there wasn't any real way of noting how much I actually make. NOW.

There is one thing I can do, and so I'm going to try and do that this week, and see if that makes a difference.

If not...........

You know what? I'm not going to think about that right now.

Part of my "Worry Free" diet for this week.

Happy Thoughts: ..............................................I'll come up with something......................