Summers End

Hi.
My name is Erin for those of you who may have forgotten me or what have you..
Can I possibly back out of this whole going to school thing?
I know it starts in two days..yes two days; on a SATURDAY...but surely skipping one semester will be ok?

I kid.

I'm ready to have that diploma in my hand, and do something else with my life.
Like go to this lovely university I work for.
Did I tell you guys I've already received my certificate in Basic Photography?
It wasn't great for my motivation.
Honestly, I wanted to grab that thing, and high tail it out of school, not looking back.
I have since, come to my senses and realize that I need to finish what I've started.

Cause I don't not finish what I start. Unless its absolutely necessary.

That's another thing I'm going to write in my "Erin's Attributes column".

Speaking of "attributes", my friend Rebekah, and I were musing on here we are, two amazingly quirky, crazy, fun, single ladies and "no one" knows much about us. I suggested we started just letting people know what our shining attributes are. I mean, otherwise they'll come up with their own opinions, which might be the wrong ones.. so why not give 'them' the facts straight up.

You know? So "they" know what they are getting into. #smirks 

For instance..."people" pretty much think I'm only concerned about my dogs..admittedly I am quite passionate about dogs and training, which is to say that I do talk about my dogs/post stuff about training quite a bit. 

Ok. A lot. 

The alternative would be to complain about people, actions, relationship failures, etc..etc.. 

However, I'm think I need to spread a little bit more about myself out there as well... 

Of course the idea is to get it out there as subtly as possible, because honestly we're not really...um... "looking" shall we say. Life is complicated enough already.

• Randomly announce what you are good at on Facebook. 
• Create/Buy T-Shirts proclaiming your attributes 

• Push come to shove, just take out a wanted ad. But good luck.  You never know what you might get!

These are just ideas of course. 
If you try them (and they work) let me know! 

However, now I've digressed so much that I have completely forgotten the point behind this post. So in conclusion, school starts in a couple of days and right now I am hoping that I'll be on that train. 

Cause once again Financial Aid has failed me. Not really a surprise, but I was hoping I'd get through this semester drama free. 

Alas it is not to be. 

For once I'm not stressed about it, what's meant to be will be. 

So I'll leave you, to get back to your weekend..heading over the mountain tomorrow to visit old friends and their dogs.. .:) 

TATA! 

Erin 

P.S. ( Blogger now has predictive text? Can you say annoying?) 

{Can I Say "I Love You?"}

There are some people in my life, who are in my life by blood. It’s been over two years since I’ve seen them; I don’t really have a relationship with them because they are many miles away. But the expectation seems to be, one that I have to maintain in order to hear anything. I don’t get it, even as a child I’ve wished things could be different, but since it wasn’t something I had to deal with every day, I pushed it off.

Today I decided to make sure I was doing my part, and sent a long newsy cheerful email, and the end I wrote: “I love you!” and signed my name. I don’t know what happened but I suddenly realized what I wrote. I mean in essences I do love them for who the represent. But for the most part, I don’t know that I LOVE them for who they are, or who they are in my life. I really don’t know them at all. Truthfully I do wish there was something that happened, where I could try and rectify the situation but there isn't..that I am directly involved in anyway.

 Now that I’m older to realize how much work maintaining a relationship is, I began to realize that perhaps the work didn’t want to be put in. I don’t know. All I can take care of is the present and future. And maybe one day I can say “I Love you” and mean it.