You Want My Opinion?

This post isn't meant to start an argument but more to unload my brain. Again.

My Twitter feed has been blowing up about the North Carolina vote earlier this week, something I was a bit surprised at because no one in the news media really expected to pass. I honestly didn't know it was an issue considering the area I lived in. heh.

So here's the thing, no I do not support gay marriage. You already knew this because I've written about this before. To me its a moral issue, a sin issue, right and wrong, and I don't believe its right.

I believe sin is wrong. Whatever form it comes in, whether its lying, cheating, stealing, etc..etc..

Yeah, I'm one of "those" people.

However, this does not mean I will treat you as a sub-human simply because I don't agree with what you are doing.

I can't.

Because pride is also a sin, as is hatred.

Believe me, I am not the way I am simply because I am so good. Ohhh no no no no no no jean claude.

You didn't get the "Before God" me. I wasn't a nice person.

But I digress.

The purpose of this to say, that simply because I do not believe two women/two men should get married doesn't mean I hate them, or am ignorant etc..

It just means my opinion differs from yours. Theirs. Everyone's probably.

Here's the thing, what goes on behind closed doors is. None.of.my.business. And I like it stay that way. However, when you post videos, tweets, Facebook status, Google plus articles ...telling me I SHOULD agree with you or else be categorized as ignorant, hateful, close minded....

[and people say RELIGIOUS people are bad about forcing their religion. HA!]
{{and OH YEAH you can't BULLY someone into something}}

"He that is convinced against his will is of the same opinion still"

Then I have a right to express my opinion. And you have a right to respect it.

AND. If you ask me to vote on the issue, I also have a right to vote no.

Does that make me a bad horrible hateful person? No. It doesn't! :)

You know from a previous post, that I have had gay co-workers, gay clients, and *gasp* LIKED them. But that doesn't mean I HAVE to agree or support with what their doing. 

Now that I've lost friends and followers...

I'll bid you good day.

Comfort Zones

My Job of almost two years + My House of One year + My Family + My Friends +My Church = Some of my comfort zones. 


I'm a person who thrives on the sameness of my comfort zones. Of knowing what/when/why/where/and whoe 


However, that does mean that I'm not really motivated to do or be more than I already am easily..which is not something I really feel is that good of a trait. Just because I'm comfortable being lazy doesn't mean that, that is a place I should stay. 

No matter how much I like it. 


Truthfully I'm not "lazy" in that sense of the word, when at work I work, as hard and as efficiently as possible. However, once I reach the comfort zone of my house. All bets are off. I'm just sayin. One of the side effects of being a college student. When you're done. Your done.


Back to my point, last night (Sunday Night) as I was praying about my future, schooling, life after that I asked God to allow me to actually be able to use my degree. And it suddenly hit me, that ultimately I'm in charge of that. "But I don't wanna be in charge, God!?" 

To be honest, starting my own business is not something I really had in mind for my "life goals". I've worked in several small business venues and quickly realized just how.much.work it is to run one.  


So the idea of going out there and creating my own job is scary. Its risky. I could crash and burn. People could hate and ridicule my work. People could steal my work. I could be horrible about keeping track of my funds, and what about taxes!? Do I really love photography enough to do it every day? Yes.


So many thoughts careening through my mind. 



I can get quite noisy inside me head for sure. 


Then this question pops into my head: "But are you passionate about it?!" 


Between you and me? No. 


If I could exactly what I wanted to do?! It would be dog training. 


Those who know me, know I'd talk about dog behavior all day if I could. I love the challenge of finding the solution to what people deem "problem behaviors". I'm on at least three different behavior/training email lists, subscribe to countless other training blogs, not to mention all the dog trainers I follow Facebook. I've been doing this for five years now I think I kind of like it.


But all the "training" schools are so far away/too expensive and right now its not an option/an option that God has put his approval on so. We do it as a hobby at the moment. 

I think my biggest draw to photography, was its something I can do, and still be a SAHM.  As much as I hated the idea when I was younger, its grown on me quite a bit since I've entered the working world. I CANNOT imagine trying to get ready for work and kids off to school in the mornings. 


I have a rough time getting my dogs fed and pottied before leaving for work now as it is! 


But I'm straying away from the point. 


The point is, I'm realizing more and more if I want something, I may have to step outside of my comfort zone to get it. And that, my friends, is scary.