My Job of almost two years + My House of One year + My Family + My Friends +My Church = Some of my comfort zones.
I'm a person who thrives on the sameness of my comfort zones. Of knowing what/when/why/where/and whoe
However, that does mean that I'm not really motivated to do or be more than I already am easily..which is not something I really feel is that good of a trait. Just because I'm comfortable being lazy doesn't mean that, that is a place I should stay.
No matter how much I like it.
Truthfully I'm not "lazy" in that sense of the word, when at work I work, as hard and as efficiently as possible. However, once I reach the comfort zone of my house. All bets are off. I'm just sayin. One of the side effects of being a college student. When you're done. Your done.
Back to my point, last night (Sunday Night) as I was praying about my future, schooling, life after that I asked God to allow me to actually be able to use my degree. And it suddenly hit me, that ultimately I'm in charge of that. "But I don't wanna be in charge, God!?"
To be honest, starting my own business is not something I really had in mind for my "life goals". I've worked in several small business venues and quickly realized just how.much.work it is to run one.
So the idea of going out there and creating my own job is scary. Its risky. I could crash and burn. People could hate and ridicule my work. People could steal my work. I could be horrible about keeping track of my funds, and what about taxes!? Do I really love photography enough to do it every day? Yes.
So many thoughts careening through my mind.
I can get quite noisy inside me head for sure.
Then this question pops into my head: "But are you passionate about it?!"
Between you and me? No.
If I could exactly what I wanted to do?! It would be dog training.
Those who know me, know I'd talk about dog behavior all day if I could. I love the challenge of finding the solution to what people deem "problem behaviors". I'm on at least three different behavior/training email lists, subscribe to countless other training blogs, not to mention all the dog trainers I follow Facebook. I've been doing this for five years now I think I kind of like it.
But all the "training" schools are so far away/too expensive and right now its not an option/an option that God has put his approval on so. We do it as a hobby at the moment.
I think my biggest draw to photography, was its something I can do, and still be a SAHM. As much as I hated the idea when I was younger, its grown on me quite a bit since I've entered the working world. I CANNOT imagine trying to get ready for work and kids off to school in the mornings.
I have a rough time getting my dogs fed and pottied before leaving for work now as it is!
But I'm straying away from the point.
The point is, I'm realizing more and more if I want something, I may have to step outside of my comfort zone to get it. And that, my friends, is scary.
I'm a person who thrives on the sameness of my comfort zones. Of knowing what/when/why/where/and whoe
However, that does mean that I'm not really motivated to do or be more than I already am easily..which is not something I really feel is that good of a trait. Just because I'm comfortable being lazy doesn't mean that, that is a place I should stay.
Truthfully I'm not "lazy" in that sense of the word, when at work I work, as hard and as efficiently as possible. However, once I reach the comfort zone of my house. All bets are off. I'm just sayin. One of the side effects of being a college student. When you're done. Your done.
Back to my point, last night (Sunday Night) as I was praying about my future, schooling, life after that I asked God to allow me to actually be able to use my degree. And it suddenly hit me, that ultimately I'm in charge of that. "But I don't wanna be in charge, God!?"
So the idea of going out there and creating my own job is scary. Its risky. I could crash and burn. People could hate and ridicule my work. People could steal my work. I could be horrible about keeping track of my funds, and what about taxes!? Do I really love photography enough to do it every day? Yes.
So many thoughts careening through my mind.
I can get quite noisy inside me head for sure.
Then this question pops into my head: "But are you passionate about it?!"
Between you and me? No.
If I could exactly what I wanted to do?! It would be dog training.
Those who know me, know I'd talk about dog behavior all day if I could. I love the challenge of finding the solution to what people deem "problem behaviors". I'm on at least three different behavior/training email lists, subscribe to countless other training blogs, not to mention all the dog trainers I follow Facebook. I've been doing this for five years now I think I kind of like it.
But all the "training" schools are so far away/too expensive and right now its not an option/an option that God has put his approval on so. We do it as a hobby at the moment.
I have a rough time getting my dogs fed and pottied before leaving for work now as it is!
But I'm straying away from the point.
The point is, I'm realizing more and more if I want something, I may have to step outside of my comfort zone to get it. And that, my friends, is scary.
