Dear Diary // I'm Ready Already!

Over the last couple of days, a lot has happened. 

It was fast, sudden and totally unexpected.

I can't go into much detail right now since this a very public forum, but suffice it to say, life has a great potential to change, like next week. This change would  mean a great many things to me, another chance to go to school,  a chance for life to be a bit sweeter, a sacrifice of monumental proportions (for me anyway), a lot less free time. A busier me. I know God only opens doors that are GOOD for us, so I'm trusting if this doors starts to creak, then its meant to be. (Ha! Rhyming again!)

Its taken a lot of thought and prayer to get to the point, where I'm ready to run through this door should it open, but peoples I'm officially there!

Now if I could only get a phone call......!

A Letter

Dear God,


Why can't I know my life's plan ahead of time? I mean honestly, it would be sooo much easier to know what I'm supposed to be, where I'm supposed to be, and why I'm doing it. 


But I suppose that would mean I would be less, reliant on you, and more reliant on myself.. 


Oh.

Dear Diary // The Interview

Interview 7.20.2011
Today I had an interview at [Job Company Name], for the position of Administrative Assistant.
Can I tell you how long its been since I've had an interview? I've been applying for jobs since January with little to no bites and lots of rejection letters, and finally the same day I apply for a job, I get a call for an interview.

That has never happened.

To say I was excited was an understatement, but at the same time I was nervous. This would be a full-time position! Life is about to go from slow to 90MPH. My free time is going to go way down, if they aren't "cool" with my service dog in training, I may have to give him up. Can I do that? Is this job really worth it?

God I've got to quit worrying and start trusting.
And with that thought I went to sleep.

The interview went smoothly, I felt I answered all their questions in an honest and clear manner, and not just in a way they wanted to hear. I know sometimes its easy to know the "right" answer and not feel it, but this time I knew each answer was echoed inside of me.

However as they asked if I had more questions, I knew I had to ask the "service dog question". I'll admit I was encouraged by the sign welcoming service dogs on the front door; but when I broached the questions, both interviewers looked a little taken aback.

"Would that be a deal breaker if that wasn't a possibly?"

Not Necessarily No.

I felt confident in that answer and their response.

My mom on the other hand felt otherwise.

"How could you even give them the idea that you might not except the job?!"

Because I don't lie, and it would have been a lie for me to say that not being able to have David with me wouldn't have given me pause. That doesn't mean I can't and won't except the position, but I've only had him for five months and to give him up now WILL be heart breaking.

Now I'm concerned that perhaps they took in the same way my mom did, and my mind is running all over the place. Did I just ruin my chances at this job? Should I have just kept quiet?

No, I've kept quiet before and look where that's got me. [nowhere if you were wondering] Struggling to work my puppy raising around my job. Its not fun, or easy. But its worth it.

Not only that but leaving my current job will.be.hard. I love my co-workers and even the worst of days have been a lot less that some places I've been too.

We shall see..

Diary Entry: August 5, 2010

Dear Diary,
Yesterday’s top news story: “Judge Rules Prop 8 unconstitutional”. I looked it up and soon found that this judge had decided that marriage does not mean a union between one man and one woman. I thought that was sort of funny because I don’t believe any MAN came up with that “idea” in the first place. But most of all I was just sad, I know people think this is what’s going to make them happy or life better for them but I don’t think it will.


Other people say love is love. So why isn’t it ok for sister and brothers…or sisters and sisters…or brothers and brothers? Or shall we even mention….animals? I mean if we’re going to go that route. I know people probably think I hate people who are living a GLBT lifestyle, but I don’t. 


I’ve worked with many gay people. I don’t have a problem with people at all. I DO NOT support people who are going to try to physically trying to harm people who don’t have the same opinions as they do. That’s just stupid and the consequences are so.not.worth it. But at the same time, I’m not going to pretend like I agree with something I don’t, as I would consider that a lie. And that’s another “no-No” in my book.


Ah well Diary, I will probably lose followers, but if I can’t express my opinion on my blog…where can I? I wish people would be open to the one thing that would make them happy. But. Ya know God gave us our own will for a reason.

Dear Diary: Today I did nothing

Dear Diary,
Today I ate breakfast...

Yes it was 11AM,but hey it was within two hours after I got up, so that counts in my mind.Did you know there are some people who eat like...THREE meals a day? I'm doing good if I get two in.

I also finally straightened up my bedroom, and put the vacumm cleaner back together. I took it apart cause it was clogged, and apparently leaving it outside during a rain storm, (it was on the porch) can cause the hair and such like to clog, and stink up the place. So is spent a good thirty minutes cleaning that. Yeah self...don't do that again. But wow did it work great after that!
It had better! psht. Got distracted by my computer, and surfed the net for a while, while listening to Dr. Laura beat up people on the radio. Always a good time. {-That's sarcasm btw} Have I mentioned I'm a talk radio junkie? Tackled the bathroom, tried to get rid of as much scum but ugh oh well. Also tried to pry open the teeny window in their but no such luck. In other news the bathroom is looking great. Got distracted by the sun, and went outside for a while.
My sister trapped me into driving her to work, so i decided to pile the dogs in and take them too a park since I was going out. Need to remember that walking them in the middle of the day is not a good idea. Poor things were about dead after about one lap. The dachshunds anyway.

 

Can you spot two dogs in this photo??

I couldn't find my dog seat cover, before we left so they used this. 

Came home and spent as much time outside. Thank God for laptops. The camera missed me dumping Pink Lemonade all over myself.... Miss my computer by INCHES. 

Did some more cleaning, cooking, chatted with my righty neighbors. This is surprising because i didn't really think they liked me that much, but I got a "Hi how are You" for the first time in the 1yr+ I've lived in the neighborhood. Interesting. Spent the rest of the evening between my and neighbors left's house. Broke down and did the dishes. I hate dishes. I would clean bathrooms over dishes.

Also melted and then re-froze ice cream really doesn't taste all that good, even with lots of stuff covering it. Might as well throw it. away. *sniff*

And that, Diary was my day.